Holding on to the promises

Our church has been doing Wednesday night bible studies on the Parables in Matthew 13. Through this study I have come to learn a lot about my self.

My recent discovery that I will share openly is in regards to the parable of the seed. I have come to the realization that I am the person that hears the Word of God, it falls to the ground and the cares of life choke it out. This isn't something that I am happy to admit but in truth it is me.

I have been dealing with this for quite some time now. With the job loss, facing loosing my home, Not knowing what on earth my future holds for myself as well as my kids, and just the over all stress of life. I am that kitten hanging on to the wire by one paw.

However, I am still hanging. My motto through this all has been from my favorite movie Casablanca "I'm no good at being noble, but it doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world."

In truth my problems don't amount to much when its all said and done. So many other's have been through the same and continue to go through worse. Our cares and problems are temporal. I have to daily reminding myself of this and just keep marching, holding on to the promises of God.

He said the Steps of a Righteous Man are ordered. He promised to never leave us nor forsake us, and that he knows the plans for our future. Plans to prosper us and not to harm us.

While he continues to work out all the details of my life I continue to remain ever Thankful for the fact that he is a patient God. Loving and all understanding of our humanity and faults. Some days I just don't feel deserving of the love he gives.